FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!

SO OVER TRYING, I OFFICIALLY AM BACK TO THE COLD NUMB DEAD INSIDE GIRL THAT EXISTED 2 YEARS AGO (THIS IS ACTUALLY NOT POSSIBLE FOR ME ANYMORE SINCE I GAVE UP THE BOOZE, I TEND TO BE OVERLY EMPATHETIC SOBER) BUT I AM SURE AS HELL GONNA TRY!

I DON'T WANT TO GET INTO TOO MANY SPECIFICS FOR OBVIOUS REASONS AND I HAVE BEEN QUIET ABOUT IT BUT FML I JUST NEED TO VENT AND SAY FUCK IT I JUST WANT TO TURN OFF THE CARE SWITCH! OR LEARN NOT TO READ INTO PEOPLES BEHAVIOR CAUSE NINE TIMES OUT OF TEN ITS BULL SHIT ANYWAYS!

PAST MONTH HAS NOT BEEN A GOOD ONE FOR MY PRIDE

BUT I WILL SURVIVE I ALWAYS DO........

JUST HAPPY TO SAY MY WALLS ARE BACK UP FOR MY OWN GOOD, (SOME MAY THINK THIS IS NOT A GOOD THING BUT I AM CERTAIN THAT IT IS) AND IT WILL BE A LONG DAMN TIME BEFORE I LET THEM BACK DOWN!

Sad for the situation, but happy that you're strong and dealing with it.
PM me if you want to talk, you know I can empathize.

Posted by aurelie Sad for the situation, but happy that you're strong and dealing with it. PM me if you want to talk, you know I can empathize.

thanks hun <3

it seems as far as relationships go I just don't have any luck lol

Aw babe I'm sorry. Can't say more because I'm not entirely sure what's going on but I love you! You can always call/text/pm etc. Even if you feel like ranting at like 3am since I'll probably be up anyway

*hugs tight*

Giving up hope is only temporary. The right one is out there for all of us, & one day all the pain will melt away. That's my belief anyways. Stay strong & NEVER settle.

Posted by zipper Giving up hope is only temporary. The right one is out there for all of us, & one day all the pain will melt away. That's my belief anyways. Stay strong & NEVER settle.

I have always told myself the same but the older I get the more I begin to think thats all just bull shit we tell ourselves to feel better about heartbreak (I know i sound jaded and bitter right now lol) I am normally a very positive person and have always tried to see the silver lining but this time I was caught so off guard well lets just say luck in the area of relationships has been beyond bad with the last few ppl I have dated. and before that I refused to be in a relationship after splitting with my ex fiancéé who I was with for almost 7 very good years.

I know my priorities in life are changing as well as want I want in life and I guess that changed my way of thinking when it comes to men as well. as for now like I said I plan to try my damn hardest not to let those walls down because I am so fucking sick of feeling crushed. I guess I just miss how easy it was with my ex, there were no games no fear it was what you see is what you get and I could be myself and not have to worry about what issues or fears he had he accepted me flaws and all as I did him. granted that relationship ended quite badly but that had to do with a huge mistake made on his part as well as mine that we just couldn't get past (too much history for there to ever be a future kinda thing)

i appreciate your feedback, and hope I can return to the rational person I normally am, and take it to heart

I agree with the others that time is what heals. We are always the most guarded after a harsh breakup. After awhile the pain fades but always remains as a dull reminder to what has been learned.

It's very hard to find a great match and very elusive. Eventually you will find yourself yearning for a companion and finding yourself opening yourself up to others.

In the meantime, spend time with friends, do things you find fun, and enjoy life. The more you can do to avoid dwelling on what hurts, the faster you'll be on track to the positive you. (while also trying to consider any legitimate criticism that may have been offered you can work on for future)

Boy, I sure that doesn't sound generic or cheesy, but it's what I've learned so far.

Just for reference too, how old are you?

I'd hit it!




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Posted by G to the Race LOL, I better not put that, folks may misconstrue.

ok now I am curious...balls up race LOL what were you gonna say?

Posted by Gringo Loco I agree with the others that time is what heals. We are always the most guarded after a harsh breakup. After awhile the pain fades but always remains as a dull reminder to what has been learned. It's very hard to find a great match and very elusive. Eventually you will find yourself yearning for a companion and finding yourself opening yourself up to others. In the meantime, spend time with friends, do things you find fun, and enjoy life. The more you can do to avoid dwelling on what hurts, the faster you'll be on track to the positive you. (while also trying to consider any legitimate criticism that may have been offered you can work on for future) Boy, I sure that doesn't sound generic or cheesy, but it's what I've learned so far. Just for reference too, how old are you?

thanks and I am about to be 28 (damn thats scary close to 30 LOL)

Posted by Cossette ok now I am curious...balls up race LOL what were you gonna say?

Just a joking "I'd hit it."

It took me until I was 40 to find the right one. Don't give up!

There's something about this thread that just makes me want to put a good hard dicking into cosette.

Not a relationship or nothing.

Just a good hard dicking.

hahahahaha funny funny ....sigh

all jokes aside....... I am actually feeling a little better this week. I see shit for what it is and I mean what is the good on dwelling on shit. I know I am a good person and would do anything for those I care about so their loss right. I also know what it is like to meet an awesome person and just not be ready for the level of relationship that they are (maybe this is my karma lol)

so even tho it sucks well I understand there is not a damn thing i can do (fully accept it fuck no...but understand it, yeah lol)


i guess only time will tell right.......

Posted by Jonsered It took me until I was 40 to find the right one. Don't give up!

i talk a good game but i doubt i will ever actually 100% give up lol...thank you tho

sometimes i just want what i want when i want it ...i AM a girl and all lol

Posted by Cossette thanks and I am about to be 28 (damn thats scary close to 30 LOL)

Coss baby chill I wouldn't put you a day past 24 on the outside (It's the height lol)
and maybe 17 on the inside


Keep it real out there in the wild wild west you call F/Rox

For the last week and a half, I've gotten to go through one of those stupid things called a break up. Blargh fargh asdlrdsaflfksdja;

Posted by Gringo Loco For the last week and a half, I've gotten to go through one of those stupid things called a break up. Blargh fargh asdlrdsaflfksdja;

Me too! But I initiated it, I wasn't the dumpee - muhwahahaha!

Joking aside this is tough - it's like that time I gave up tobacco, which I failed at - I had to break it off with my gf of 3 years and one-time *gulp* fiancee. She's really hurt and angry, thinks there's someone else (there's not).

I'm really, really looking forward to being single though =)

Posted by Gringo Loco For the last week and a half, I've gotten to go through one of those stupid things called a break up. Blargh fargh asdlrdsaflfksdja;

breakups suck ass, and whenever they happen you claim to never want another relationship because of said breakup. then you end up back in another one. its like a vicious cycle!

I guess I'm different because I'm not against having another. I just hate the moving on process then looking for someone new. I got the "perhaps in the future we may get back together" line. Which just feels like she's trying to make me feel better but she may not actually mean.

I think though she felt I wasn't into her because I did break up with her twice and there we some things I regretfully told her when I drunk. (I told her I feel like I could take it or leave it sometimes and that I wasn't sure if I was attracted to her) I think those things were just always on her mind since then, and over time she didn't feel wanted and moved on.