You speak of human decency, yet you are attacking a person you don't know over something you barely know anything about. And for apparently no reason, unless this thread cut you somehow as deep as you would cut me. If you find it within your heart acceptable to laugh or otherwise jest about cruelty between one human being and another, please try to find your own humanity.
You ask me to "let it slide and PM me about it" as if you have something genuine to say to me. Like you truly and actually care about anyone or anything involved aside from being granted ability to scream out injustice. Had you, we would not be speaking here. It appears your aim is really just to lay hatred on somebody you think is a bad person. I know I can't blame you for that thought, and you have every reason to think of me as some terrible despicable monster with no right to life or kindness, as I once thought personally. But I want you to know that not all are doomed to repeat the mistakes of their past. Not all get lost down a long continuing road of violence and anger. There are ways to make things right again, long and difficult as that path may seem.
And I say this now so any who have ever experienced an injustice of their own may see that there is possible salvation for those who offend against you, if they are truly willing to lose ego, look within, and search for the reasons they acted the way they did. And once they find those reasons, to grow and change so they do not repeat them. So they can once again become human. There is always hope. I may still have a long way to go, but I will never give up.
You ask me to PM you. But I would like you to know that despite great and well deserved shame I am not and will not hide from what I did. That is only further injustice to the person and those by proxy I have harmed. I accept that you and many others may only see me in the light I have created for myself and there is nothing I can do to change that. I am the creator and not the victim.
If you or anyone else would like to legitimately talk about it then PM me, as though I am not hiding, I will not go into any details here out of respect for that person, and I hope you will extend them the same. If my words above seem empty, speak with me, help me, so that you may see my conviction. I wish you no harm, and beg your understanding.
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