Posted by Lord Awesome I don't know if I am just retarded or what, but I was confused. I am done with her shit now and not speaking to her anymore.
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You know what, people are nothing if not confusing and contradictory. most people go through life somewhere in the middle of knowing what they're doing about half the time, and just kind of winging it the other half.
she sounds like a confused, indecisive totally normal person who also happens to be a selfish bitch. did you do something to lose her affections? maybe, and that's your mirror to look into, but the fact is she's been two-faced and manipulative since breaking up with you. doesn't mean all the blame's on her, just pointing out that you're right in feeling like she's behaving really badly and doesn't really appear to have any conscious idea what she's doing.
you ask the question 'am i retarded?' -- probably not. you're confused, understandably so. i think the best thing you have said is "i am done with her"... and this is an important step you have to take. if she calls again, tell her that it's over -- no friendship, no romance, nothing. you're done and she has to respect that.
once that's done, you can move on and start healing from this mess. as the wounded party you're probably going to have thoughts and fantasies about her calling and apologizing and wanting to make everything right, wanting you back... but that kind of thinking may just draw this out. worst thing would be, if she DOES call you back and say all that and you get back together and then break up again somewhere down the road, because at the end of the day you were not right for each other and this entire episode is simply evidence of the fact.