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bandi Lippy Mechanic Bastard
Location: Trent Hills, ON Gender: Male Total Likes: 734 likes
A liminal mind is all I've ever known.
| | | | Re: So now what? < Reply # 20 on 4/13/2010 9:05 PM > | Reply with Quote
| | | Posted by Shael Bandi, now you know how I feel. I've been floating around since January like this. Sam just wants to be close friends, I promised him I wouldn't say much on here, but I've been floating around aimlessly, lost since after the first of the year. I'm sure anybody that's talked to me probably knows this by now. I'm still pretty broken hearted and I can't move forward, at least not now. I mean, we still go out to dinner and other stuff, but it's not the same. He just doesn't understand how much I've been hurt and why I get upset after seeing him sometimes. I know, most people will say just break it off and cut it off for good, but I'm not that kind of person. All I really can say is he's a selfish son of a bitch that didn't and doesn't really care about my feelings in all of this and I hate him for it, but he's such a big part of me that I can't seem to let go of and I can't stay mad at him for more than ten minutes. I never could. But yeah, I understand how you feel. I'm lonely myself and I miss him. I'm sure you wonder how and why I do, but when someone is such a big part of you for 3 years and one day that just disappears, you're not the same. Shael
| I really, really fear that I'm putting Nicole (ex) through the same thing you're going through. I do want to keep in touch with her, because we are great friends, and we live in the same small town, so it's impossible to not see each other. I just feel like such a douchebag every time I see her, because I can tell that it hurts her when she sees me, and I really REALLY have no intentions of ever getting back with her. Sigh.
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| Shael
Location: Witherbee, NY. Gender: Female Total Likes: 7 likes
Baaaaah.
| | | Re: So now what? < Reply # 21 on 4/14/2010 3:39 AM > | Reply with Quote
| | | Posted by bandi
I really, really fear that I'm putting Nicole (ex) through the same thing you're going through. I do want to keep in touch with her, because we are great friends, and we live in the same small town, so it's impossible to not see each other. I just feel like such a douchebag every time I see her, because I can tell that it hurts her when she sees me, and I really REALLY have no intentions of ever getting back with her. Sigh.
| Yeah. I do my best not to tell him. He knows though and I will make him suffer every fucking time I see him. I just hope she doesn't do the same to you. Sam basically left me for his car and his four wheeler. It drives me nuts because he's a shallow bastard that didn't have the balls to tell me he didn't want me around and let me hang on for months. Also I never see/saw him unless he needs/needed something. Like his taxes or his checkbook fixed. But, he tells me he'll "always love me", yeah right. He'll always love his fucking car or his fucking bike, forget about me. That's what makes me the most angry about all of it. I put my heart and soul into everything we did and gave him everything I could for almost three years and he shits all over me just like that, because I'm making him miserable and I ask too many questions about where he's going or what he's doing, etc. He feels he doesn't have to be accountable to anyone or have to give anyone the courtesy of a phone call. I can't change my life overnight, I can't do what someone tells me immediately and I can't grow a dick, so I end up alone and pining over someone that I can't have because he won't get his head out of his ass and realize I don't want what his brother has, I don't need the kids and the picket fence. That and he listens to the douchebags he works with, who change girlfriends/significant others like fucking socks, nearly daily. There is nothing in the world you can't fix, unless someone is either psychotic or stupid, Sam doesn't realize that and it pisses me off to no end. I have issues with dealing with his idiot friends who think I'm a bitch. I may be, but when I'm not listened to, I get defensive and upset, which is what his friends did to me, especially when they asked for advice or what I would do in a financial or legal situation. Anyway, hope you do better with her. Shael
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| jeepdave
Location: Anderson, SC Gender: Male Total Likes: 1303 likes
It's also a gun.
| | | Re: So now what? < Reply # 22 on 4/14/2010 4:53 AM > | Reply with Quote
| | | I'm learning things here tonight (doin road work on I-85 and bored). I quit looking. Me and my ex had my daughter when I was 21. We had decided it wouldn't work and hey, ur preggo's. Wasn't much to do about it. She had no where to go so we lived together for several years, not together mind u, till she got her life situated. I basically whored around for a while till I decided I was done looking. Figured bacherler for life here. I was in my late 20's and really didn't want a relationship. Then I met a girl at a dead end job I had. She liked cars, jeeps, having fun, and pretty much everything I did. She was a city girl, I was country. Told her I would never be a city boy, just isn't a life I can lead. We hit it off, I had a strict no drug policy (she liked the weed) because of my daughter. When she quit, because of my daughter I knew. We have been together for 3 years and are gettin married in October. So basically what I'm saying is quit looking, its only then that you will find what you want.
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