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NHUrbex
Location: NH, USA Gender: Male Total Likes: 2 likes
You can always find me chilling on a rooftop.. Ironically, I'm not a fan of heights. Just views...
| | | Re: How messed up were you as a teenager? < Reply # 22 on 7/15/2010 12:26 AM > | Reply with Quote
| | | I was homeschool all my life, but that had NOTHING to do with my loneliness. I was always very bright academically. Except at math. I fucking hated math. I normally ended up talking with adults because of my difference in maturity with my peers. I lived with pretty controlling parents, especially my mother. She went through times where she just pure hated me. I was also really gifted physically. I developed a passion for martial arts, especially japanese. Mom though martial arts were purely evil and refused to support my interest. I got four jobs and started college when I was 16. Basically all I did was work and study. Then at night, I would sneak out of my room and hike by moonlight for hours. Yeah, I didn't get much sleep. That was a side affect of lyme's disease. I tried making friends, but trying to make friends at 16/17 when everybody knows everybody already, you are automatically an outsider. I remember asking one of my coworkers who lived nearby my house if she'd like to play tennis (her favourite sport) sometime. She said maybe. I didn't know anything about tennis. for the next couple weeks, I got a new racquet and some balls and I learned to play. I became pretty good, actually! I asked her again. She said, "I'm sorry, but I don't even know you." We had worked together for two years. That killed me. I hate being a loner, but I'd rather be lonely than shunned.
| Behind every mistake, there is a lesson. I'm just not that great at learning them! |
| Oryx
Location: Who knows Gender: Neither Total Likes: 40 likes
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| | | Re: How messed up were you as a teenager? < Reply # 23 on 7/15/2010 3:28 AM > | Reply with Quote
| | | Posted by NHUrbex I was homeschool all my life, but that had NOTHING to do with my loneliness. I was always very bright academically. Except at math. I fucking hated math. I normally ended up talking with adults because of my difference in maturity with my peers. I lived with pretty controlling parents, especially my mother. She went through times where she just pure hated me. I was also really gifted physically. I developed a passion for martial arts, especially japanese. Mom though martial arts were purely evil and refused to support my interest. I got four jobs and started college when I was 16. Basically all I did was work and study. Then at night, I would sneak out of my room and hike by moonlight for hours. Yeah, I didn't get much sleep. That was a side affect of lyme's disease. I tried making friends, but trying to make friends at 16/17 when everybody knows everybody already, you are automatically an outsider. I remember asking one of my coworkers who lived nearby my house if she'd like to play tennis (her favourite sport) sometime. She said maybe. I didn't know anything about tennis. for the next couple weeks, I got a new racquet and some balls and I learned to play. I became pretty good, actually! I asked her again. She said, "I'm sorry, but I don't even know you." We had worked together for two years. That killed me. I hate being a loner, but I'd rather be lonely than shunned.
| She's a bitch. I know aaaalll too well about loneliness. Making friends was ridiculously hard for me. Women made it a million times worse. Just don't take rejection to heart. The more you throw yourself out there the easier it will get. And how the hell is martial arts evil? lol
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| Yield
Location: Look behind you Gender: Male Total Likes: 15 likes
I'd do you for a klondike bar
| | | Re: How messed up were you as a teenager? < Reply # 27 on 7/23/2010 1:39 AM > | Reply with Quote
| | | hmm. I started training for the olympics at 14, took the 'genius courses' in school and started university when I was 15, was date raped by a boy who I thought loved me, lost half of my family and a few best friends to cancer, was depressed and suicidal - and I mean I tried, my mother saved my life by punching me in the face. God I love her. Graduated with amazing grades, finished college and had a career by the time I was barely 18, was 'friends' with the whole damn world and I hated everybody. Every god damn person. I didn't go a single party and even skipped my own graduation. I'm much healthier now.
| Yield's Peer Review: ~Doesn't give a fuck, total badass, and one of my ue-besties. ~Genuine, has positive character and this thing called integrity. Knows when to be serious. Passionate about productive things. Human being. ~fish fish boxing boxing bestest friend evah |
| NHUrbex
Location: NH, USA Gender: Male Total Likes: 2 likes
You can always find me chilling on a rooftop.. Ironically, I'm not a fan of heights. Just views...
| | | Re: How messed up were you as a teenager? < Reply # 28 on 7/23/2010 12:07 PM > | Reply with Quote
| | | Posted by Yield hmm. , took the 'genius courses' in school, | That seems to alienate people like nothing else. I went through all that. I used to take summer classes at my Dad's work (a multi-billion dollar biopharmaceutical lab and manufacturing plant). They had programs where they pick the most promising applicants. I always made tons of friends there, but in my hometown, nobody wanted to be with the 'smart kid'. I didn't matter that I was an excellent sports player or that I was a social magnet. Then, I realized I didn't need them. The friends I already had were the best I could get. I was right. One of my friends is in Hollywood right now, filming a major movie at MGM studios, another is preparing to release his ninth CD and go on tour again before he heads back to Berklee, and yet another comes on every UE adventure I do. Don't let people label you. Standing out never hurts, if you do it for the right reason.
| Behind every mistake, there is a lesson. I'm just not that great at learning them! |
| NHUrbex
Location: NH, USA Gender: Male Total Likes: 2 likes
You can always find me chilling on a rooftop.. Ironically, I'm not a fan of heights. Just views...
| | | Re: How messed up were you as a teenager? < Reply # 30 on 7/24/2010 4:53 PM > | Reply with Quote
| | | I started taking college classes when I was 16. It was tough. I kinda lost touch with the things I loved. No more playing outside, no more trips to the mall or library. Study, study, study. I was forced to mature much faster then my peers. I was working for my town's heritage commission at 12 years old. Working with adults every week, investigating historical sites and buildings and planning restorative procedures is not your average twelve year old's weekend hobby. I've worked with adults for years at our local library. When kids were trying out for baseball, I was assisting the moving crew for a two-hundred year old barn a few miles down the road. When others were studying in schools, I was upgrading and repairing our home computer by sheer hands-on experience. I never felt the need to fit in, but accelerated learning made sure I would never be able too. I love learning, and enjoyed it all the way, but I did miss out on childhood.
| Behind every mistake, there is a lesson. I'm just not that great at learning them! |
| DoS-man
Location: Toronto, Ontario Gender: Male Total Likes: 0 likes
what has been seen can not be unseen
| | | Re: How messed up were you as a teenager? < Reply # 32 on 8/10/2010 5:50 PM > | Reply with Quote
| | | I lived a sheltered life for about half of my teen year because my mom never really worked and was home all the time. I always felt that my parents were trying to hold me back from everything I wanted to do, especially my mom. By the age of 15-16 I had started drinking and smoking pot, but not because I wanted to, it was because of the fact that I wanted to make my parents mad and be rebellious. I started to get really dependent on pot in grades 11 and 12 yet still managed to pull off 80's in my classes and get into university. I had a couple of girlfriends during those years, but one cheated on me and the other was just a good friends with benefits (always a good time). The girlfriend that cheated on me sent me on a downward spiral which resulted in me almost dropping out of university. Every weekend I would party to the point of passing out in my friends dorm. I had a couple encounters with the police but managed to get out of them, and I started selling pot to kids in my university classes. Near the end of the first year of school, something hit me, and to this day I still don't know what made me do it, but I came to realize that I was completely fucking up my life (for lack of better words). I tried last minute to change the program I was enrolled in and miraculously got re-accepted to a different program. I went through a couple relationships since then and I have really turned my life around. I still drink and smoke pot recreationally, but I am no longer dependent on either. I have great friends that support me and ones that I know are not around to bring me down.
| In the end you will be laid to rest where you belong. Bathed in the flames for your hatred and your ignorance. Your the symbol of masculinity, but I can beat king kong. |
| Shael
Location: Witherbee, NY. Gender: Female Total Likes: 7 likes
Baaaaah.
| | | Re: How messed up were you as a teenager? < Reply # 34 on 8/10/2010 7:40 PM > | Reply with Quote
| | | I sat in the back of the classroom and messed up the grading curve for everybody else. I fscked off all year, then aced the final exams and/or the regents exams, making everybody else look stupid. I should have been allowed to skip three grades, but my mom said no, so I turned kind of antisocial. I didn't have a whole lot of friends, I spent most of my time in the music room at school, playing the piano or other instruments. I spent most of my childhood raising my sisters because my mom didn't really know what she was doing. Single parent, she didn't wanna be the bad guy, so it was up to me I guess. School came easy, relationships came hard and still do. Which is why I fit where I work. I went to college, found friends there, got sick, had to leave school, then waited five years, went back and graduated. 4 years later, got a job working for International Paper Company, where I've been for the last five years and the sad thing, it's the best decision I ever made. I fit in, I make ridiculously good money for what I do and people miss me when I'm not there.
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