Posted by victoria- It's tough adjusting to not having somone there. But like I was saying. I doubt it will work out. Hes still asking what needs to be changed. when he should know.
|
You get used to it.
I've been throwing myself into my job lately, so I don't notice much. I'm still wandering aimlessly, but I have something of a purpose.
That and trying to repair the relationships that I destroyed while being with him because I was always sitting by the phone waiting for him to call and didn't go anywhere or do anything because of it.
Like for instance...I owe my coworker, Bill, a lot. He's stuck his neck out for me more times than I can count and when he needed me to work 12 hour shifts for a week so he wouldn't have to work 16"s because somebody was out due to a criminal conviction, what did I do? I sat by the phone, waiting for Sam to call, instead of doing what I should have done, which is work the 12 hour shifts for the week to help him out.
So now, I'm trying to repair that relationship and strengthen it, since I broke it in the first place. I treated people like shit for 3 years because of it, I let my work attitude get so bad that people didn't want to be around me because of it. So now, it's time to fix it and try to make it better and repair my relationship with Bill and try to make it up to him because I was such a rotten bitch during those 3 years.
Shael